February 28 is a sad day, it's the first payday that I didn't get a check! Reality is here, I need to figure out how to pay the bills. I've got a fledgling tutoring business going but I need to put a little more effort into promoting it and get a few more clients. I've also applied for some part time work from ads on Craig's List.
Last week I was offered an interesting part-time teaching job, but I didn't feel right about it. The job had potential to be a time and energy suck, at a time that I really feel like I don't have much energy. I just kept feeling like "this job isn't why I'm here right now". Turning the job down required a conversation with my parents about possible emergency bailout loans. I have rarely asked for money from them, so it was very awkward.
My parents had very different reactions to it. Mom has always been the Financial Worrier in Chief of the family. Dad and I have always called her Squirrel Nutkin because of the way she squirrels money away. She's made a few comments that my financial concerns are my own fault and that she never asked me to go on leave from my job and be here. She admits that she's very grateful to have me here (most of the time) but she doesn't seem to get what I've given up to be here. I'm chalking it up to her dementia and trying not to be offended by it.
Dad has always one who felt that he worked hard to have money to do what we needed to do and ideally what we wanted to do. When asked about the money, he gave me a look of "of course, why are you asking?" and said "no problem".
So I've got a net if I need it, now I've got to try not to use it. Tutoring anyone?
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